I have SO SO much on my mind that I don’t know where to start. I don’t know if I should even write this post and share because I’m not convinced it will be helpful in any way but I’m going to anyway because it’s on my mind, it’s the elephant in the room and the monkey on my back and without explaining myself, I’m afraid I’ll be move forward in an inauthentic way.
6 years ago I started this blog and began a creative journey that has been blessed on so many levels. I believe we live in a toxic world and must prioritize living a natural lifestyle. I believe in taking control of your own health so much so that I make my own skin care! I also believe in fun, frivolity and guilty pleasures. However, I’ve taken a controversial turn and ended up somewhere I’ve never been. To experience first hand what it’s like to be called names and shunned because of how you believe is not something I have any experience with. It has humbled me yet left me a bit flat lined.
This blog has taken some wrong turns but they’ve always led me back to where I’m supposed to be. It started last summer when I decided to start a new blog. I love hunting for bargains, putting outfits together, creating playlists, interior design etc. I thought I’d stick to DIY skin care and health topics here and document more frivolous subject matter there. It didn’t take long of photographing myself in various outfits that I became disgusted with how shallow it felt. It also seemed like all the fashion bloggers I followed had gained so many followers so quickly that they felt it was OK to go on and on about every aspect of their lives on Instastories. I threw my hands up ashamed that I was moving in that direction and threw my outfit selfie days in the garbage.
That wrong turn made me realize that my true purpose was to shed light on truths. Mainly truths about our health. I want to speak a message that matters. I want to help people. I know that our world is going in the wrong direction when it comes to health and however small my platform may be, I want to be part of a solution rather then add to the brain dead sheep mentality of many people.
I also want to continue to be real about things like motherhood, marriage, spirituality and embracing who God made us to be. Never do I want to put an illusion out into the world that isn’t 100% authentic. Angles, lighting, filters and cheap outfits made to look expensive were about the opposite of who I want to put out into the world.
Unfortunately, most if not all natural health websites have been hidden from your view if you’re using Google. Instagram, Pinterest and Facebook have also buried posts related to natural health. The censorship is very real and I’ve been effected.
There is really no point in posting on social media anymore and gaining the large amount of traffic from Google that I once did is now in the past. Truly, my email list is the my only hope for continuing. Even the email list has to be transferred to a company that doesn’t threaten censorship! What a time we’re living in!
I’ve evolved so much from writing this blog. Blogging used to be about me. I was seeking my own glory. While I still struggle with that here and there, my heart has grown for my readers. I want to help if I can. So many of us are suffering mentally and physically and if I can point you in the right direction for healing then my purpose is being fulfilled. It’s ironic that God has grown my heart and shrunk my ego just in time to be censored! Those fashion posts would’ve definitely not been censored-lol.
Anyway-this is a raw post. I’m sorry if I’ve depressed you or shared too much. I just need you to understand my heart right now. I want nothing more then to continue posting and connecting to this community but it’s confusing to know where I go from here. I tell you this in hopes of comfort. While I know God has a purpose in everything He allows, I still just feel defeated.
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I urge you to stop using Google. It should enrage you that they are manipulating your searches to let you see only what they want you to see. They are in bed with pharmaceutical companies and health blogs that share alternative remedies to pharmaceuticals are a threat to their money making scheme.
Google is the default search engine for Safari on your I-phones. I’m not sure about Androids.
You now have a choice on your phone to use DuckDuckGo which is what I recommend over Yahoo, Bing and Google. I actually show up on searches on DuckDuckGo. On my main computer, I use the environmentally conscious, Ecosia which I highly recommend.
Thank you for reading if you made it this far-lol. And if you are still reading-PLEASE reply below. I would love to hear from you. I’m happy to have suggestions of future content or even just your thoughts on being censored.
xx, Jenni
Thank you for this post. I’ve been educated. Thank you for sharing DuckDuckGo and Ecosia.
Teresa-You’re so welcome! Thank you for reading!
Thank you for your rawness in Writing this post. Please don’t ever give up. I believe there are many of us out there that want the truth and that is what you provide. May God keep you safe and happy!!
Suzanne-I won’t give up thanks to all these comments like yours. Thank you for taking the time to write in. It means the world! Blessings to you too!!
I completely agree with all your thoughts and feelings in your blog. I think that what you are doing is fantastic. I think educating the world and making any affective changes needs to come from small places and has to start with individuals like you.. Collectively, these are the people that will make the change we need so desperately. So kudos to you! Keep up the good work! Your products are fabulous! I’ve seen positive changes in myself. I will also try to spread the knowledge that you share.
Carmela-Love what you said about small places collectively making a big difference. That inspires me. Thank you for what you’ve said-I’m so glad you are benefiting and would so appreciate sharing!!
Thanks Jenni for your blog, newsletter and all the great advice and products you produce. I now into natural, clean green skincare. I’m always looking for something new. I absolutely love your skin products and diys. My skin is transforming for the better. Keep bringing to us. I really appreciate all you do and advise on.
Robin-Thank you for saying this!! I’m so glad your skin is improving! I will for sure keep on keeping on!!
I followed you because of your posts about natural beauty and health products and how to make them ourselves. I did not follow you to learn about your views on politics or vaccines, etc. So now that that is where you are headed I will not follow you to another site. I do believe that google and others are censoring and I’m sorry it is happening to you. I believe everyone is entitled to their own opinion and to voice that opinion. Good luck to you.
Carol-I’m not moving in the direction of sharing vaccine information or my political views. I have posted 2 posts over the last 6 years about it but my main priority is natural beauty. I will continue to give recipes and post about other health topics. My other site is just a personal site that I rarely add to. Nothing is changing here on this site.
Beautifully written. It’s hard but we all have to keep growing and you are. Thankful for your openess and may it help others as they continue to grow. It’s not always easy but need to be ever forward. Bless you.
Lori-Thank you so much! Just by revealing where I’m at, I already feel renewed.
Hi Jenni I know exactly what you are talking about regarding the censoring of health related news. It is so sad and frustrating that they are steering us away from the truth about all these chemicals. I am like you in that I want to educate myself and eat healthy and use products on my skin that do not cause side effects. I follow the website Natural News.com and Mike the Health Ranger is extremely up on all this. He was just recently writing about Google. I use Duckduckgo however I recently read (through Natural News) someone was commenting that Duckduckgo uses Bing.
Don’t know, haven’t researched further. Keep up the good work Jenni. Blessings to you from Canada
Joyce-I think you are right about DuckDuckGo but it’s the only option on I-phones that isn’t yahoo, google or bing. Thank you for supporting and commenting! Blessings to you too!
Thank you for the information. I have been following you for quite sometime and even made some of your recipes. I am in agreement that Big Pharma is out to take away our choices. Of course by now I think everyone knows that. I have been using herbs and essential oils for about 30 years. You have taught me a lot too. I think you can never know to much. Thank you for the insight into where to search. I get my essential oils from Ananda apothecary and of course get my herbs from Mountain Rose. I use a CBD oil from Ananda called DeFlame for my Neuropathy. The relief is almost instantaneous. Thank you again for your knowledge and your insight. I hope nothing but the best for you. Jana.
Jana-Thank your your comment! I’m so glad I’ve been helpful! That’s interesting about your CBD oil, I’m on one too but I haven’t noticed much change that I can specifically tie it to. Thanks again for your sweet words and thank your supporting me!
You are doing the right thing, sometimes that’s the hardest thing to do. Keep it up girl! You got this! ❤️
Virginia-Thank you for commenting and supporting! I so appreciate it!! BIG HUGS!
Hi Jenni
I live in Australia and have followed you for many years. I regularly make the Hyaluronic Serum. Haven’t tried the new one yet.
I am 70 years young and continue to be amazed and shocked by social media.
Stay strong and continue to be true to yourself. Love your blogs and recipes.
M
Maeve-Thank you for saying this! I heard someone say that social media is the toilet of the internet. So true! I’m so glad you make the HA serum! I will stay strong-because of comments like yours, I feel so energized and excited to keep going!!
Thanks for this post Jenni! Makes me feel like I am not alone on this frustrating situation we are facing lately 😔 I will check into DuckDuckGo on my iPhone and please continue your work on helping others, I truly appreciated you. Many blessings to you 🙏🏽😊💞
Ofelia-You are not alone-I follow lots of natural health accounts and it’s amazing how much they’ve been effected and how everyone is fighting for justice. Thank you for making the switch! Thank you so much for your words. Blessings to you too!
Jenni, I love your site and continue to learn about healthy beauty and great diy recipes. I think it’s disgusting that big pharma/google are controlling our ability to find good information online. I will continue following you and using your diy information.
Thank you.
Cheri-Thank you so much! It is disgusting and scary. If enough people boycott them they will hopefully fall! Thank you for following me. I truly appreciate it.
Oh Jenni,
I have loved following you from day 1 I have learned so much from you when I was creating my own skin care regimen and when I’ve asked you for advice you have always been there for me promptly with a very nice thoughtful answer and message! I will continue to follow you where ever you may go I do subscribe to your email list and like you have switched to DuckDuckGo don’t give up you are loved!💕
Trish-Thank you so much for saying this!! Your words have touched me!! Thank you for changing to DuckDuckGo too!
I had no idea google censored! That’s crazy! I will try your recommendations.
Sara-Yes, so crazy!! Definitely a very weird time we’re living in.
Just a quick comment since I’m in full tilt prepare-for-a-Party-here mode! You need to know what a HUGE and chain reactive effect you have had on my life! While I have always veered Alternative in the past, your recipes for skin care, etc. completely dumped me OFF of the cosmetic industry band wagon. Now, the only thing I do not make myself is shampoo and conditioner. I “sell” (just charge a really small amount to cover ingredients) my products to my friends and have good feedback. I still have an intent to possibly go into providing “spa” days for those in hospice care using my products (and using one of my renters to compassionately give these people their “makeovers”. She lost her mother recently and in her grieving wants to give back…) and also would like to work with local women’s safe houses to get them little care packages. YOU (God through you..) started me on this path. Keep being authentic, may God bless you and THANK YOU.
Lanette-You brought tears to my eyes. Thank you so much for taking the time to tell me this. Blogging can be a very one sided thing. It’s impossible to know if you’re helping anyone sometimes. This means the world to me! God bless you too.
Thank you for your honesty and putting yourself out there! It’s no fun being called names and accused of ugliness. We live in dark times, and I’m aware of what you posted about…but many are not. You are bringing important awareness to many who might not have known. It’s good to know we aren’t alone. Keep it up!
Joy-Thank you for these words! I really hope I am helping people question all these medical practices that aren’t meant to heal.
I just love your blog, and came upon it some time ago doing a search for DIY skin skincare recipes. There are other great blogs on this topic, but yours is outstanding in being so educational, thorough, and so many recipes! Your voice on this blog is so genuine and authentic, and so appreciated! I have made several of your recipes and given the products away to friends. So appreciate your comments on vaccines, probiotics, etc., as those posts are totally in keeping with what I think it says on your home page, that your blog is a natural lifestyle blog! Stating your beliefs is ok too!! Those things are all part of natural health and beauty! I hope very much you continue your great work here! I have already heard things from various sources that confirm Google to be a questionable and very controlling source.
Elizabeth-Thank you so much for your words! I appreciate them greatly! I want nothing more then to be genuine and inspire truth and healthy decisions. Thank you for taking the time to be so kind and commenting.
It’s very difficult to have the courage to stand up for your convictions because you are often the only one standing. Keep standing ❤️
Denise-Thank you so much-I definitely will thanks to these lovely comments. Thank you for commenting and supporting me!
Never give up nor give in. Let’s not let them beat us. And yes their trying too! And although writing about a new blog showing bargains and outfits you find and but together made you feel like it was a wrong turn. It wasn’t nor is it shallow. What it shows others is that hey look you can put together this amazing outfit without spending a fortune. Which in turn gives those a light to look toward to that they can look great in bargain clothing. That wearing bargain clothing is not cheap nor degrading because it wasn’t bought in a department store. That part gives a boost to others who otherwise can not afford that clothing. I do agree why do people have to share every moment every minute of their day. I feel you did nothing wrong. You showed your great fashionable bargains.
Janette-Thank you for your encouraging words!! I will not give up-I’m totally renewed after writing this post!! I throw random content on the other blog here and there and am finding a balance. Thank you for being encouraging about it-I appreciate it!!
Jenni, I love your blog. I’ve been a follower for several years.
I have 3 sons and 2 of them just quit social media. My 3rd son never got very involved in it.
They feel that a lot of their privacy has been compromised and it’s not worth it to them.
One of my boys told me he was getting stalked on FB. The other one said he felt that
he was cheapening himself.
Back to your blog- I love it and have made several of your DIY’s. I don’t care what you choose
to talk about either 🙂 If I don’t agree so what? Happens all the time in this world.
Best of luck to you.
Sue-Seriously-you’ve done something so right with your boys. That’s amazing that they see social media for what it is. Good job! I only hope I can steer my girls away from it. It’s such a trap. And it does cheapen people. How wise of them to see it.
Thank you for your kind words too! And I certainly don’t expect every post to be received by everyone-I’m so happy you take what you need and leave the rest! Thank you so much for taking the time to comment!
I can’t figure out how to change the default browser on my iPhone and when I”googled” it, it said Apple currently does not allow you to change the default browser on iPhones, iPad’s, or iPod touch devices…?
Cathie-Hope they haven’t done some weird update where you can’t. I went into Settings, then scrolled down to Safari and that was where I had a choice to switch out of Google.
Got it! 👍
I found you a couple of years ago and stuck with you because you promoted Healthy Lifestyles while being free to also give out your recipes! That right there told me you were interested in our well-being instead of profits…which is so rare these days! Stick with the truth Jenni…you are a special light in today’s dark world!
Stevie-Such kind words!! I do want to spread health and wellness and have been so blessed from this blog. Thank you for taking the time to comment!!
Do NOT feel defeated! Your relationship with God is the only thing that matters.
But you know what, we ARE making a difference! We ARE affecting their dollar! That’s why the censorship has started on SO many people I follow, those industries are scared we know too much now. Their evil ways are wrong and the truth will prevail. Just keep spreading the truth and voting with your dollars, I can see that has really been affecting what’s on the store shelves! I’ve also learned who true friends are that I want to surround myself with, not sheep that have no open mind and attack with rude comments when I kindly share informative posts. Quality people is so important, not quantity. No matter what you think, the health messages ARE spreading! Thank you for your work! God’s blessings to you!
Lori-Well said sister! You are right, they must feel the resistance or we wouldn’t be getting censored. Thank you for your words and since writing this post, I am so excited to stand back up and keep fighting because this is a fight that’s worth it!! And you’re right-what God thinks is really all that matters!! Thank you for commenting!
Thank you for your honesty, Jenni!! You are not the first person I follow who has said the same thing. I already use DuckDuckGo and love it. I have not heard of Ecosia but will definitely be checking it out. Stay strong!! “They” can not keep us down. We will not give up.
Kathy-You’re so welcome! Yes, check out Ecosia! We can’t give up! It’s a worthy fight that’s for sure!! Thank you for your support!
Hi, This is the first time I have read your blog and I like what I read. I have to ask why you know that Google has censored? I do know about FB and IG but I am surprised about Google.
Hi Gail-I just responded-I’m so glad you like what you’ve read!! I hope I answered your question.
Jenni,
Stay authentic! Jesus warned us they will persecute his followers. Your information and products have helped me immensely over the years. My adult children think I’m brilliant for recommending natural remedies before they become mainstream (due to your articles).
A loyal fan and customer,
Cathy G.
Cathy-Speaking of persecution-I often think that at least we’re not being persecuted for being Jesus followers. That’s way scarier then this! I’m so glad I’ve been helpful and I’m so glad your kids think you’re brilliant-You probably are! I think we all are for making our own skin care-it was the funnest and healthiest hobby I’ve ever done, that’s for sure! Thanks again for your support!
100 percent truth
Theresa-Thank you for reading!
I was SO blessed to find you several years ago. I have gained a wealth of information over the years I’ve been reading your posts, and I have been encouraging my friends to follow your blog as well! It is unbelievably frustrating and wrong how our “free” country turns a blind eye to the censoring of health information, the intolerance of things that aren’t “politically correct”, and the demonizing of anything and everything that goes against big corporation. Hang in there!!! We appreciate what you do!
Tara-Thank you for telling me!! I so appreciate you reading my posts and sharing me! It is frustrating and crazy wrong. It’s all about money and greed! Thanks again for taking the time to comment!!
Miss Jenni, Two things. I’m grateful for the light and love you share. And I love you. Keep shining strong ❤️
Nicolette-Oh my gosh-Thank you so much! That warms my heart!!
I am a fan so I do not ask this to be a contrarian but how do you know that Google is doing this..?.I would not be surprised but I am curious how you know this to he true.
Gail-I was absolutely going to approve your comment-I just have my family home today so I hadn’t got to the comments to approve. Sorry about that-I’m very happy to connect with everyone that takes the time to comment, unless they are mean! lol! I have a lot of health blogger contacts that have been experiencing a huge lack of traffic since the first update Google made in October. They continue to lose with each update. Dr. Mercola, a trusted site that I refer to often lost ALL his Google traffic with this last Google update around the first of June. I believe Dr. Axe did as well. I’ll leave you with THIS and THIS article. Of course, they’ll never admit it but I also have fashion and interior design blogger contacts that have not been affected at all. I personally have lost 1/2 of my daily traffic since the October update. Also, social media is very upfront about censoring alternative health posts. I’ve been contacted several times that they were removing my content.
Actually I have heard this before but since I didn’t go on google much I left it. I will definitely add DuckDuckGo to my iPhone and change the one on my computer as well. I hate Google, and I used to love them above the others.
Maria-Thank you!! It’s crazy!
Beautifully said, thank you for sharing this valuable information!
Terri-Thank you for reading!!
You. Go. Girl.
Fantastic post!
I started following you around 5 years ago when I first began my research into DIY beauty and I haven’t stopped, nor do I plan to. Your passion for natural products helped me to deal with a propolene glycol allergy that had developed after years of immune system suppression (Crohn’s). An ingredient in nearly everything, including food. I now make all our cosmetic products myself and no longer suffer the burn like rash all over my body.
A big thank you for your blog and for sharing.
Unfortunately, the censorship has gone to a point of ridiculousness. And social media to one of insane proportions.
I personally battle this as a Mom to a 22 year old daughter….
I try my best to teach her that in a world where people are constantly telling you that you are not thin enough, pretty enough, dressed well enough – just to sell you more crap – believe you are more than enough. That the most beautiful thing you can wear is self confidence.
These times are hard and I applaud you for putting yourself out there!
And never forget that you are much more than good enough!
Sarah-Love what you’ve said-Thank you!! I can’t tell you how it over flows my cup to find out that my blog has helped in some way! Propylene Glycol is no joke. Social media saddens me greatly and I’m preparing how to approach it with my 2 daughters when the time comes. I can already tell it’s a lesson they’ll have to probably learn the hard way. I’m just trying to keep them from it as long as possible! Thank you again for your support-it means so much!!
Jenn-I started following you years ago and I’ve stayed because of your honesty. Censorship of any is frightening-what’s next? That’s what most people don’t realize. If you start allowing some points of view to be hidden, it’s the beginning of the end. We don’t have to agree with the opinions of others, but we need to hear their voice as well as are own. Thank you for being real and raw-it helps me to relate to your story. I’ve been silenced when trying to stand for an injustice and it hurts like hell! But I would do it again. I believe in the Japanese saying, ‘the nail that sticks out gets hammered down’. Yet, its the nail that holds things together. Let’s all keep hanging on!
Nan
Nan–It is so scary and something I never thought would happen. I hope things will shift and truth will rise to the top. Love that saying. It’s so true! Thank you for supporting me!!
I wanted to make another comment: I have read much about the matter of successful blogging. The “tenets” of successful blogging, which at one time were much promoted by Google, and borne out in their algorithms of the past, is: Content is King. Your unique voice on your blog. Putting out fresh content as often as you are able to…. trusting of course that it is positive content, not nasty or denigrating content… Now, I am no expert, but your blog has more than fulfilled those “tenets.” So, as evidenced in those links you gave to Gail, above, to those videos, apparently those “Google tenets” are a grand facade, and Google now has its own agenda, algorithms are showing that, and causing many honest bloggers to suffer… Another thing, you mentioned name calling from whoever, like, ugh, people are still very primitive, but I think many who read your blog will know the source of this quote (the Bible): What comes out of someone’s mouth [name calling, foul language, etc.] is what defiles the person… I.e., it is them, not you, and they degrade themselves tremendously by what comes out of their mouth.
Elizabeth-I hear that advice all the time, follow it and yet have still lost half my audience so it’s true-none of it pertains anymore. I feel more then ever that if God wants to enlarge this platform, it’s really up to Him. The internet, mainly social media has becoming a dangerous place that can really cause damage. Trolls come out of the woodwork and hide behind their computer. I have never encountered the venom that comes from people that disagree with not vaccinating. It’s truly unbelievable and down right WEIRD. Thanks for adding this.
Jenni, I think what you have encountered is a bullying tactic from very troubled, insecure persons. Why they feel a need to unleash their venom is anyone’s guess … Ephesians 6:12: For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. … You are so right, our trust is in God.
Thank you Jenni. I appreciate the information re the non-censored search engines. As a 76-year old woman, I am far behind what is considered current and up to date, and that’s OK with me.
Please don’t allow defeat to slip into your life. . . loving God can help you to see that the adversary, who is the “Father of all Lies”, is the source of those feelings.
Finding/making health care products that are environmentally positive and user friendly to ourselves is super important. Please keep up the good work!
Also, please be aware, and make others aware that our pharmaceutical industry is polluting needed medications (thyroid, BP, proton pump drugs being but 3) have artificial sweeteners added. . . . for what purpose? I have had to track this down as I am violently allergic to artificial sweetenters. My response to even a very small amount is very much like severe food poisoning. It is also in many OTC products and other unexpected places.
Irene-I’m entering the age of not being interested anymore about what’s current and up to date and it’s so freeing!! And thank you for these wise words. It is so easy to believe lies during defeat.
WOW-Didn’t know that about pharma adding sweeteners! Ugh. It’s sickening. Thank you for sharing that.
Thank you for commenting and reading my blog as well-I really appreciate it!
I loved your sincerity in your blog. God always guides us to do what is right. I’m happy that you are guided by him. I love all your posts on your beauty secrets as well as live in general. Keep up the good work.
I’ve changed my beauty routine because of you. I’m still trying to change everything I use to be natural only. It’s still work in progress.
Becky-I love hearing this! These comments have shown me that I am being helpful when it comes to changing to a safer skin care routine! Thank you for telling me and thank you for your support!
I really appreciate your blog about your experience of Google Censorship. I try very hard to lead a healthy lifestyle which includes my faith in God. I am not a social media follower but I value your opinions on products, your recipes, and your tips. We can no longer ignore how much the big media companies control our information. You went out on a limb and it makes me impressed even more with your strength and uniqueness!
Kristen-Thank you so much for saying this and taking the time to comment! I feel like a live out on the limb most of the time but that’s OK! Thank you for your support!
I didn’t realize this about you!! What a beautiful post from a beautiful soul! I’d like to share this with some of my crunchy moms!! I know we’re distant family but I understand these struggles more all the time. I hear you I see you and I’m here for you!! I’ll be praying for you and sending you love light and all the healing light your way! #hopeisallweneed #faithgetsusthere
Jourdan!!!! Thank you so much for this sweet message! You don’t know how much it has touched me-I don’t get a lot of support in my “real” life-lol! As long as I stay in the lane of DIY skin care, the trolls stay at bay but vaccines are a hot topic! Luckily this has died down and thanks to this post and comments from readers, I’m renewed and continuing on in my mission. Thanks again for reading and taking the time to comment!! I’m glad we’re now friends on FB!
Great post, and yes….the censorship is unbelievable! I’ve used DuckDuckGo for awhile now, but I will check out Ecosia on my laptop. With the “second wave coming”, I’m getting more and more discouraged with things like natural ways to stay healthy (and you know, a good dose of common sense about this virus) being buried. I’m not usually about the doom and gloom but I fear something bigger is coming and covid was the excuse to usher it in. Disclaimer: I know it’s a real virus but man has it been overinflated in the media!
I LOVE your website and love getting your emails. Praying for you and all of us who crave natural options and the truth!
Jennifer-I couldn’t agree with you more. I believe Covid can be scary for some people but not most. There’s so much contradictory info that who knows what to believe. I wonder if it will die away after the election in Novemeber? Of course there is a vaccine that will make some people a lot of money and the more scared we are, the more money they make on the vaccine. Thank you for commenting and your support!! BTW-Ecocia turned out to be on a bad agenda too so I would stick with Duck Duck Go.